HIPOKRIT!!!!! let go my dear one!

kalo syg.. nape lpas kan?
kalo syg.. cmne skejap je bleh ada pgganti??

oh come on la boy!!
'still syg dia wlpn da ada org laen'
wth??!!!
hurghh!!!! hate dis type of boy!!

jgn rasa diri tu bagus sgt okeh!.
what u giv, u'll get back!

hate u coz u hurt her!
hate u coz u are a pretender!!
either pretending dat u love the other girl or pretending that u still love my girl.
u are hipocrite!!

kalo dah tak nak dia.. go away from her! let the time heals her.
let her go~!

alaa.. apa la bagus sgt.. stakat org mcm u..
yg senang2 ckp kata putus tu..
let see how long the relationship last~!
huh~!!

dear red butterfly..
be strong~!
i am always by your side~~
i can feel wat you are feeling..
i'd go through dis type of boy..
i'd go through dis type of pain..
n wut i did..
al-Quran does heal...
alhamdulillah..
there's no pain left..
just the feels of happiness..
dugaan sntiasa ada.. hadapi la dgn tabah.

love u dear~! be strong!!

tired..again...

tired... of not being myself.

wanna cry but have to smile.
wanna love but hav to hate.
wanna know but hav to ignore.
wanna talk but hav to silent.
wanna die but hav to live.

so0 depressed...


huuuu~~

uhux~
stress~!
2 more days..n i can get some peace on my own way.. at my own place.
oh. mish u ummi, yaya...
:(
need sumone rite now.
deeply hurt!

how could i tell them...~ haish...
so confusing~
this shud be the end.......
i can't help it anymore. i need the truth. not lies......

trust.

sekali kpercayaan di salah guna.
rasa mcm susah nk bg balik.

sekali pnah tipu.
rasa susah nk pcaya balik.

menda kecik.
tp, still leh gugatkan semua tu.

sorry. but i cant help it.
sekali sekala, rasanya tak salah ntuk cuba dptkan kpercayaan tu balik.
if u really do care, then, show me how much do u really need me.

salah ke nk tnjukkan prasaan syg?
susah ke nk ckp kita syg?
yea, action is better than words.
but what if there's no action n no words?

shuld i just give up...?
herm..
wondering~~

thank u!

choc cake from kak ati, one of my clique.
for my convocation day.
thanks a lot dear.
**ini muka hasil tak tido malam okeh. bkeje ntok negara. aiceh.**

P/s: tak sabaw nye nk konvo~ yeyeahhh~
owh. n really eager to c hasil of 'bulan bintang' theme.(bkn sal konvo okeh)
will upload bout it!
tak sabawnyee~~~

the simple thing.

~kehadiran mu..senyuman mu sudah cukup.. wahai syg~
terima kasih kerna kembalikan jantung ku yg hampir nk terkeluar.


wah.konvensyen 5s dah selesaiii~~!!!! menang kalah adat pertandingan. apa pn.
pgalaman itu yg melengkapkan kehidupan.

oh! so gLad.

P/s: i miss u damn much my little girl.

heartbroken.

Baby Baby Baby...... I Wanna Satisfy You.
Maybe I Try Too Damn Hard, To Show You I Love You
What Made You Go And Run This Game On Me?
When I Stayed By Your Side,
What Made You Go And Leave?
I'm tired of my heart being broken
I'm tired of these tears falling down my face
I'm tired of this love being taken for granted
Won't you go away

You Dont Know, How I Feel..... Im For Real.
I Used To Be In Love,...... But Not No more.
When Will You Learn That I Got Feelings Too?
You'll Never Know Untill It Happens To You.
I'm tired of my heart being broken
I'm tired of these tears falling down my face
I'm tired of this love being taked for granted
Won't you go away

Theres One Thing I Gotta Ask of You,
One Thing, Gotta Ask Of You (Gotta Ask Of You)
If This Is True (True)
Why You Took Your Love Away?
Why You Took Your Love Away, From Meee
Theres One Thing I Gotta Ask of You,
One Thing, Gotta Ask Of You (Gotta Ask Of You)
If This Is True (True)
Why You Took Your Love Away? (Whyyy)
Im tired of my heart..... Being Broken.
Im tired Of These Tears..... Falling Down My Face.
(Falling, Falling)
Im tired Of This Love..... Being Taken For Granted.
(Wont You Go Your way)
~Aaliyah~

memories..~

lonely. tringat balik kat dak2 kelas. huu.. neh lagu yg ktowg nyanyikan bersama. ms dinner. mang pnuh bermakna. apa pn telah kita tempuh. sekarang dah bawa haluan masing2~ pape pon. knangan bersama tetap di ingatan n di hati. nice meeting all of u guys

Mendua- Hampir Ke Situ.

Aku sadar bukan mudah
Untuk mengejar mimpi indah
Pernah suatu ketika dulu
Ku punya harapan besar
Kini aku tak pasti
Dapatkan ku miliki

Sudah jauh kita tempuh
Kekalkanlah impian lalu
Mungkin ada hikmat
Yang akan menunggu
Di penghujung jalan
Biar nanti kecewa
Setidak-tidaknya mencuba

Jika halangan menduga perjalanan kita
Janganlah kau putus asa
Karena ku ada di sisi setia menemani
Andai semangatmu gugur
Genggamlah tanganku
Kita hampir ke situ

Adakala ku terasa
Ketabahan tak setegar
Tetapi apakan daya
Berhenti separuh jalan
Percayalah padaku
Aku yakin kita mampu

Biar orang katakan
Rapuhnya harapan
Bukan mereka tentukan lagi
Kau ada aku dan aku punya kamu
Amanlah akhirnya tetap bersama
Oh…

~~ miss u guys so damn much! nak masuk kelas balik weh!!! huu~~

aidilfitri 2009.

first day raya...
location: farmasi bekalan wad.
Partners: huda.. norbi..
mood: excited sbb mencuba pengalaman baru. sad sbb first time tanpa family.

at the mean time,
dkat kg...

auch~ damn jealous!! huhuhuhu...

then, the next revenge~
fourth day raya..
everyone wore pink okiess~
nak sambut kpulangan i..
super nice~~
open house day..! yeay~

oho~ sangat rindu..
tgk~~ dia gembira kakak ksygn dia da pulang..
hehehe..suke2!

n a big thanks to all my friends..esp jack.. tiap2 taun xpnah miss mai raya umah i~ muahx! cyg kamu!
n to all girls.. ada, nadir, jemah, puji, yeen, tengkiupp!! love u all.. first time dtg umah i after about 6-7 years ago~ hoho.. seb bek jumpa lg umah i kan~ heheh..
here they are~~

mengikuti tema nampaknye.. most of them pn pakai pink~ owh i likee~~

n thanks gak kpd aizat n ajip.. hoho.. 4 taun tak jumpa kan? n lots of story to tell kn? hakss..
at last sampai gak si ejat neh kat umah gue~ kalo tak.. asek suh p amek dia je.. hoho..seb bek ajip ada~ n thanks gak to ajip bb menepati tema~ he wore pink!! auw~~ teringat lak dulu diowg neh laa yg ske kutuk2 i~ ngokngek nyer bdak.. tp ajip tak aah.. dia ske back up i.. haha.. yer ker? ada laa sket2.. neway, takder gmbr with u all guys.. coz u all neh mkn byk ngat.. tak smpat nk mek gambar.. haha.. leh trima tak alasan tu? bleh laa kan~
n thanks to lah n his friend. sorry.. no special serving... tp.. yea la.. da pnah biasakan? neway, thanks gak laa sbb still dtg braya~

yeah~ da puas ati dpt raya~ sbb ada hikmah di sebalik tak dpt braya pertama di rumah~ besh gak per raya ke-4 pon.
rasa dihargai n di sayangi~
thanks dear family~!!
angoh sangat sayang kamu orang jugak!! huhu..
moh makan kuih raya!! weeee~~~

kbaikan blogging

meh nk kongsi sket info bawu di baca dr cleo magz sept 09, lust for life sect menyatakan..
jeng..jeng..jeng..
meluahkan perasaan n pemikiran dengan menaip atau menulis leh membantu dlm..
1. tido yg lena::
according to Michael Breus, PhD, Author of Beauty Sleep, penning your feelings down before bedtime brings about relaxation that helps promote sleep.

2. Jantung yang sihat::
writing about emotional topic such as missing your boyfriend helps to lower your blood pressure and heart rate, keeping your ticker in better shape.

3. Menghilangkan stress::
recent study published in the american journal of public Health said that a month of expressive writing can help reduce hypertension. you may feel worse at first when writing about your worries, so keep at it for at least three days till you pass that phase. [wow, sgt betol la.. heheh.. lpas tulis post yg kat lpas, [marah kt encip bo0lan] baru i come to my sense..]

4. meningkatkan keimunan::
expressive writing may encourage production of white blood cells, which fight infection, suggests researchers from university of texas at austin.



so, bloggers.. lets blogging! hehehe... clap2 to us! geee~~

sad mood.

peritnye perpisahan~~
ugh! hope tomorrow never comes..
waaaAaaaa~~
xnk tggalkan umi sowg2~! wuwuwuwu.. ;(
sok da kna balik n bpisah dgn family tsayang~ huk3!!

sketsa realiti yg dihadapi setiap hari.

1.
patient: alo amoi, saya talak melayu. ada cina ka??
me: al00 auntie. ayoo,, talak cina laa auntie. apa mau auntie?
patient: haiyaa.. amoi, itu ubat kaki punya ada kaa?
me: kaki punya merah putih ka auntie? ini macam ka? (tunjuk botol artril)
Patient: haa..betut betut.. ini aa amoi..Ini brapa wang? ini kaki punya ka?
me: ya laa ini 'kuat' punya.... tiga lima ja auntie..
Patient: (sambil tersenyum gembira) waa.. betut aa ini 'kuat' punya aa.. mau angkat tiga..(sambil jari tunjuk 2).
me: auntie mau ini dua atau ini tiga? (sambil tunjuk jari dua dan tiga)
Patient: oo0..ini macam dua ka?/ haa mau dua la.. dua..~
'kuat=tulang'
*adeh..peninnn2~~*

2.
Patient1: kakakk... bagi itu merah putih punyaa..
me: merah putih kuat punya ka?
Patient1: haa.. kuat punyaa,,
me: (kuar kan artril n viatril) haa mana satu auntie mau neh.. imported atau local neh auntie?
patient1: haiyaa.. bukan ini laa.. talak betut laa.. mau itu merah putihh laa..
me: aiyaa auntie.. ini laa merah putihh auntieeee.,,,,~~~
patient1: aiyaa..ini bukan maa.. laen punya merah putih..
me:(adeh..apa lg ubat tulang merah putih nehh) talak merah putih kuat punya laa auntiee,,
patient:(sambil ckp ngan cina laen ntok translate kan ntok dia)..
Patient2: adik.. dia mau yang biru putih laa..
Patient1: haa.. ini kaler merah putih punya.. sambil tunjuk kaler biru baju patient laen yg beratur..
me: aiyooo auntie.. ini biru maa.. bukan merahh~~ ini biru putih punya..(sambil tunjuk ubat conart)
patient: haa.. ini betut.. ini biru ka? bukan merah ka? aiya..saya sudah silap laa kakakk..(sambil tersenyum simpull)
me: adehh...sabaw jer laa akuh~ #$%!@
*tolong laaa.. blajar laa basic mlayu sket.. adehh*


skang i kna blajar term2 yang basic lam cina:

hit ngat ko: darah tinggi
tam ku sun: kolestrol
waitong: gastric
kuat: tulang
liong lap: 2 bulan
yat lap: sebulan
emkoy: terima kasih

kekadang tu men sebut je.. agak2 dia paham tu ok laa.
hehehe..
kekadang mmg pening nk terangkan.. lagi2 kalo dispens ubat n kna terangkan cara pengambilan..
tapi kekadang sbb tu laa ilmu kita makin btambah.. hari demi hari i turut blajar bahasa2 depa ne..
tapi kita kan rakyat malaysia..
satu malaysia.. takkan da lama duk malaysia still takley ckp mlayu sket2..
hemph~
no heart feeling keyh..

tata.. n slamat myambut merdeka!
merdeka! merdeka! merdeka!

this dude is my guy.

the workaholic part 2:

hari-hari pegi hospital..
hari-hari jumpa owang sakit..
hari-hari terdedah dengan pelbagai penyakit..

there's one day,
nak p keje neh..cpat2 sbb macam da lambat..
tapi leh terbehenti sekejap..
coz i saw ada satu kapel ne..da tua.. umur around 70 kot..
the husband pakaikan face mask kat dia nye wife yg duk atas kerusi roda..
so sweet..so romantic..
then they're whispering to each other than laughing..
maybe bcoz of the face mask.. then the husband mula tolak isteri dia to the klinik.. haish..
tergamam dan tesenyum di situ sebentar..
what a loving couple..
sampai ke tua.. huu.. walaupon sakit.. tetap tegoh bersama.. siap p klinik sama2...
kawaiii~~~

moga-moga.. siapa pon jodoh ku.. kami kekal bsama.. sampai hujung hayat..
amin...

a workaholic pharmacist assistant.1.

update news: a workaholic pharmacy assistant, HuKm

kedai farmasi [N0n-formulary farmasi HuKM];

harga obatan ntok kolestrol mang mlambung naek laa..
tmasuk la ubat2 fosamax, livial, evista, ..
20% tuh.. Lipitor(atorvastatin, Statin Co-A group) dari rm7o lebeyh da gone up to rm 99 per 30 tab.

**i kesian laa kat patient yang kena beli ubat2 neh.. hukm dpt subsidi sket je.. jadi ubat-ubat list A neh mang bukan formulary laa,,ubat2 tu mahal.. kalo kat kerajaan diowg kawal.. kat sini, sket2 ubat tu.. so tpaksa lah patient kna beli sbb bajet tak mampu nk tanggung~ haish..so fwenz, jaga lah pmakanan anda...

Next;

Disebabkan influenza H1N1 atau dikenali sebagai selsema babi,
Farmasi A&E (emergency) dibuka untuk 24 jam.. kalo before neh keje sampai kul 12.. skang ada satu lagi shift untuk ot; 12pagi-8pagi.. ot okeh~ claim duet taw~ but hari soknye just leh off laa.. kalo nk cuti, apply cuti laa.. kalo off, tolak hour laa~
haiyaa~ kena kumpul hour laa..

**keje..keje..keje.. kumpul duet, ! Leh bagi umi byk sket.. blanja family..simpan ntok kawen! hakss~ tapi geram laa~ i wat bleh dikatakan hari2 i balik lambat, kul 10mlm, kul 12 mlm, kul 6.30ptg.. tapi still tak leh lawan mr.bo0lan~ aduhaii.. cekal tol owg tu... haishh

Tamiflu;
dinasihatkan jangan ambil tamiflu jika belom disahkan h1n1.. kalo tak bila da kena, kang virus tu resistant n there's no cure ntok orang itu..

n di hukm, tamiflu tab dikawal.. tak banyak weh! kami orang pon pinjam kat sg bul0h hospital. so.. wahai orang2 terlibat~ jangan laa gunakan untok kepentingan sendiri~ tamiflu bkn ntok profilaksis(pencegahan)!! okeh!




Ps: owh rindu dkat family, kat umi yaya abe.. rindu nk jumpa kengkawan kskb.. huwaaa

Family event~ again!

date:26 jun 2009
tempat: macam biasa: our lovely garden.
tema: MErAH HiTaM
event: Bday cah, cik La n aLom.

.

The LoveLy Bday Cake

as usual..
made by angoh[me].
deco by me n yaya n ummi.
tema: buterfly n bebola api.. haha..
ceri malaysia okeh! tp.. nama glemernyer
buah kelekuk! hahah..
ntah tol x ejaan nya.

oh they so heppi!! sowg dpt seluar pink.
yg sowg gik gembira tak tkata dpt hadiah di umur sebegini
hahaha

owh so heppi bersama dgn mereka.
huaa.. sok da kna balik kL.
huk huk huk.

nnt da susah ntok berblogging
c u bila i dpt broadband laa lak..
papaiii~~

aku manusia.

tadi baru pas baca blog one of my skewlmate kat bseri dulu..
takde laa knal ngat dia.. tapi taw laa..hisyam. dulu dak akaun kalo tak silap.
n tertarik dgn his blog. berunsur islamik.
byk memberikan peringatan.
n sgt myentuh hati..
sangat kagum~!

Ya Allah. Ampunkan la hambamu ini.
Bimbing laa aku kejalan yang benar.
berikan lah aku hidayah mu
Sesungguhnya aku manusia.
yang alpa dan mudah lalai.
Amin...

duit oh duit!

sonok nye kalo dpt pgang duit manyak2~!
haish.... sape nk bagi saya duitt???!!!
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i need m0ney~! huhu.. da lama tak bgantung pada bonda.
agak segan mau mintak2 always. haish

isnin.

i just have 5 days more to serve my lazy bump at home~
haishhh.. sedih nye rasa.. there's a lot of things i'm enjoying at home..
nengok tv ngan umi n yaya, lawan CS ngan yaya n aina.. jd teacher tak bbayar for aina..
ngusik2 yaya.. kacaw2 yaya.. babysit airiel.. masak2 ngan umi.. lepak2 kat umah tokma.. men tenet yang tak putus2~ 24/7! hee..lawan men barn buddy(facebook) ngan ayahsue, yaya n other cousins..
owh yea..every evening, bcoz i da gaduh ngan lemak2 i..
so i bsenam! hee~ sgt rajin taw!! skipping is a must + badminton or football.. or just lari2 around the house. oh i so gemok skang taw! huhu.. so kna work hard sket..wuhuhu.. so0 tembam!!
but my boolan always support me.. hehe.. dia tak kesah.. dia ckp dia support jer sbb i yg beria2 nak turunkan berat badan.. haks.. betoll laa tu~!
tapi still makan.. rugi laa kalo duk umah tak makan.. huhu.. bkn slalu dpt mkn mskan cenggini. oh so D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S..~!
nnt da kerja nnt.. duk umah sewa.. duk kt kL.. kompem tak dpt mkn cenggini. huu..
nnt i diet laa.. kat umah neh i nak having fun dulu~! yeah~!!


p/s untuk yg trasa:: menabung laa untuk masa hadapan anda. simpan dalam 'bank bergambar taw!!'
hua hua hua...

my other 'siblingss'

first time we met.. none of u i ever known. comes from varies of ages n country.
then, we do get along.
we laugh, we cry..
time passed~

sem 1..,
me n my 2 others hukm members mang tak dpt dipisahkan laa..
tp i do rapat ngan dak laen.. hid.. momon, bubu.. n others..
we lurveee taking pics~ owh snip snaps wherever we culd~

besh p kelas.. leh melaram lagi masa sem 1... sbb tak dpt uniform.. haha..

kamilah the future 'pembancuh ubat'.. wuhuhu.. sgt bosan dgn kelas amali farmaseutik ms neh.. argh.. sgt malas nk mnimbang.. nak wat ubat.. aduhaii.. lagi2 kna exam dia.. haish.. ada sorg tu.. sbb masa tak cukup ntok sukat dos n find the ingredient, ada men masuk air kosong je.. konon2 ubat liniment.. kan warna cerah.. hahaha.. tp of course laa lect leh detect.. hehe.. dulu mang tak besh.. tapi bila ingtkan balik.. hu~ so much memories behind of it.. haiss~

then sem 2, nk dkat2 akhir da kalo tak silap baru dpt uniform..wuhuhu.. here goes da pic after smua da pkai uniform..


arent we so0 cute?? hehe.. yup.. mang ada yg da berumur.. tapi.. kami memang sekepala~ auw!
lagi rindu ngan korg smua neh.. wuwuwu..

stiap kali masuk sem baru.. we had to go through orientation week. oh so0 bored n so exhausted.
but we do know how to hav fun in our own way~ peace!!


dis is the time where we had our kursus motivasi at ulu yam..
there goes our 'motivated face'. hahaha

then, sem 3.. oh. our orientation weeks not as fun as what we had before. herm.. mayb bcoz of the senior's 'poyo-ness'. hik hik.
anyhow, we do get trough dat. but there's some conflict after dat. with the seniors n some lecturer. actually i'm not sure what's dat about. i'm neutral.. and i dont hav any fights. except with the ex. ops.~
but, dat doesnt matter us at all.
we do hav our fun.
our family day at PD. pergh~ so unforgettable memories.

we threw out a birthday party for our sisters n brothers who born on nov.

then, sem 4 n 5.. practical year. the kkm student did their practical at their hometown. oh so jealous!
but its ok, me at hukm. n mer with some0ne~ haha.. gatai.. owg practical blajaw. neh carik jodoh lak..
hahaha.. n hopefuly he's my real jodoh. haks..


gee.. me n mr boolan @ ipd.. the staff there were so supporting!
he.. act cool~

then our final year.. huuu.. so much fun! n sgt byk pix! haish.
here we are,,


in class.. masa tutorial en.fuad .. were having quiz.kami group e.coli~ we w0n the quiz! auw~ go e.coli!!!

n dis is the time where we were so gediks~! there's some guys came to college to take class pic. n okayh we did. but with some extra gediks posed! well.. photogedikss 50~ hee

n here goes the pic of our very first lawatan trip yang menggunakan bas slama lbih dari sehari.
acceli, lwtn to ain medicare,PC, Kb. hee
we go 1 day early ntok xtvt bebas. n the pic was taken at my house!
they were having some feast at my house. my mom generously want to blanja diowg mkn kat umah~ hehe.. its so nice to hav all of us bkumpul at my house!
love them!

after dat, the big event for us,
dinner @ pwtc..

the last night???.. oh n0!!
i hope to see u all again.
mayb at our graduation~ okayhh??!
Huu... mish to be with them..

truly from my heart..
Penghulu sem 6
batch 50,